I Want To Move

Jaded in Los Angeles, CA

I recently hit the twenty year mark of living in Los Angeles, CA. And I want to leave. I feel jaded. Even when I see something I might like to do, like a music venue or a hip restaurant that I would normally like to try… I don’t feel inspired to do so. It saddens me that it has come to this. The lack of motivation of experiencing new things here is making people around me, perhaps concerned. I get it. I’m concerned too.

I want to try new things in a new town or country. I want to form new opinions. I want to drive new roads. The traffic in LA is pissing me off so hard. I bloody hate it.

Maybe I just need a break. Maybe LA and I just need some time apart, and then I’ll come back and we can get our spark back.

Or the chapter is really ending and I need to be brutally honest about this ending so I can move on.

I’ve been LOOKING at different locations. I think the plan is to spend minimum three months somewhere new. After those three months, I would love to test the LA temperature and see how I really feel.

What would my future kids want me to do? The phrase, “I don’t know,” keeps coming out my mouth. I hate saying “I don’t know.” I want to know. People around me ask, “Where would you go?” I wish I knew. 2026 is around the corner and I hope answers and destinations can fill my heart with hope.

This transitional phase of my life is overwhelming. My heart rate can spike, then I start looking at all these locations on my TikTok feed, hoping the “right one” will just appear in front of me. “Oh, that’s the city I want to live next…” Boom, let’s pack up and go.

Los Angeles, CA is beautiful with so much charm. I don’t want to discredit what this town is and what it does to people. There is so much history here and so much to do here. It also has really good food. I’m just… Jaded.

This can all change, I will keep you posted.

EV